Someone's bored. What now?

"haha", "yeah..", "whatever", "ugh", "...", (WHAT WOULD I REPLY TO THIS?)

Frustrated about your conversation? Yeah, everybody is.. You see, interest comes from the words someone will reply to you. Whether its a simple nod or an "i don't know". You can tell if someone don't really know the shit you are talking about, or someone just simply... doesn't give a fuck. Face it. We can't be entertaining to everybody. Not even stars, aliens, ghosts, spider-man or Peter Griffin can be entertaining to some. People aren't the same.

About this people. Hmm. People also change, or somehow.. It is their personality before and then they change then the "before personality" came back? But then we don't notice it, because what we see is their interest, which we don't care if its real, or fake. Ok, I think this might be confusing but... People unintentionally or intentionally hide their feelings. So as their interest. They may laugh or accompany you at first. But believe me, only few stays, and get interested.

Sometimes, I wish I could be an animal. A dog which can be entertaining. I never get tired with dogs. But this is life. Face the reality. We can't please everyone. We can only attract attention (at first)

I'm so sleepy and stoned, I don't know what in the hell I'm discussing. I just wanna put a story on that dog. XD

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Let's walk in a straight line.

Got so drunk. I fell asleep. Puked. Almost. Ate a scorching hot noodles. And sang a song all at the same time. Whoa. Last night was so awesome. I never thought I'd reached that moment. It was almost cloud 9. Laughters and no more tears formula was inside of that rhum bottle. Chased by beer. Followed by tea and ice. It was helluva night. Although the drinking session wasted moments started when we're all boys there. It was nothing but happy times. Though, like a bottle threw to my head, Spirit hit my mind hard. I straightened it up and the heat lined to my throat falling down through my esophagus. It feels like heaven and hell at the same time. I see double visions. There's only one light open but seeing it through the ceiling fan, it felt like it's disco lights. The world is spinning around. I'm weak at this but I tried to get wasted. I did. And at first, I liked it. But I'm still awake when I got the hangover. Yep. I'm hanging for the moment. I'm hanging for 3 hours. I asked for this. I want this. But hell, do I hate this feeling. This isn't the solution. But the pain on my cerebrum forgot you for the moment. All I'm centered in is the pain on my brain while my hearts beats faster and faster.

 It's fine. I'm fine. It's my first time.

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My 15 minutes of limelight is over.

Ever got the feeling that you're used to be on that position, on that situation? And the moment you knew that.. It's over. You just got replaced. It's normal. It's life. One time you're employed. The next thing you'll know..
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You're fired.

I just don't get it. Ok, you know what sucks more than that? It's when you're chosen to be in the top position. But waits for your turn! It's like having an unsure reservation. Sigh. Why do I get emotions. Seriously. I want to remove this piece of crap that doesn't help me at all. I want to wake up someday.. That I don't feel anything. I don't react on what I see. I don't care on everybody. I don't love. I don't hate. I don't get infatuated. I don't get high. I don't get pain. I wish there's an "off switch" to emotions. The fuck! I hate this. How can I resist? Waking up seeing you in my deep, dark, useless mind.

One day. I'll get over this unsure feeling, I always have. Seeing you with other people. I can dig that. You're having friends. Ignoring me as always. Damn it that I can't. I don't care if its selfish. Who doesn't want to have your time. But when I'm with you. I'm left speechless, because I got nothing to say. Maybe that's the reason I'm replaced. I can't make the conversations alive. And all I got to say is nod, smile, and do some things. I'm helluva boring person. I'm good only at the first part. Maybe this is the feeling. The feeling of being left. I know its unsure that you're leaving me. We don't have any label on our relationship. All I know its a fucking secret. But I can't hold this any longer. In a just a month, I'm fucking infatuated with you. Who cares if its not love. It's still fucking irritating and comfortable at the same time.. I hate this. I hate emotions. And I hate you. I hate you for playing with me.. Because of you, I can't see any other fish. You're like a one big tuna blocking my view! I'll never get over you, until I win you over. 

You're a breeze. That gives me shiver and fond touch at random times. Which I won't know when will arrive. And can't get it even if I want to. I can't. I can't.

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"It's Cold" (Warm Coffee and a Hug Please)

It's about an hour ago since I got home from my friends house.. And while walking on their streets.. I noticed how awesome the moon was. It's a bit rainy, but the raindrops are very small and fine. It's like a solid fog back then. Anyways The clouds was very thin too, so you could see the moon at lightly. The wind is blowing heavily at the clouds, so its rapid movements made see the moon much better.. The moon was lightly full. By Tuesday, it will be on its fullest.. As the wind blows more harder.. I felt more colder.. And made me realize.. The closer the Christmas gets.. the colder.. The temperature today is 25 degrees Celsius. Pretty cold for a low city on a tropical country like the Philippines..

27 hours since a special friend of mine is separated to me.. And I don't know this feeling. I have felt this before, but still can't distinguish it clearly. It feels like years have past and wanting badly a warm embrace from that person.. Maybe I just misses her.. 

I always wonder. Why does cold temperature, calm foggy weather and a bright moon affect emotions

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OK GO!

Copyright From Flicker. I forgot the name of the owner xD

Look at that cute Dog.. I think he likes the pool. That's why he's jumping on it and falling for it.. In comeeeeeng!!

Anyways,  Did you ever got that feeling that you wanna jump but scared because the pool might be too deep.. or too shallow.. or maybe its too hot or too cold.. too clean or too dirty.. too much chlorine or too much purity.. Which I just thought.. Who cares. You want the pool. Then go for it.. Thinking too much isn't a solution in problems.. It wastes time, energy and effort.. When you could have fun.. and Make every second count, Make energies used for something and Effort on something worthy.. Or just Do what we want.. That's the best part of it.. 

My friend and I talked until now.. I asked him.. "dude.. what if i fell for the wrong reason again.. What if I fell for something that everybody think is normal.. What if I'm just assuming things.. What if I'm wrong again this time" And he was all.. "dude.. what the fck.. Just do what you want. It's worth the try. If she's really important, then do you're best damn it." 

This made me realize things I have forgotten.. Things NIKE used to say.. "Just Do It" I know its weird but.. Who cares.. If it makes me happy now. Forget the possibility that it can make me cry tomorrow. My mind always tells me that.. jeeez.. I forgot.. 

teeeeheeee.. :D

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Snakes, Malls, Dressing Rooms, Myths, Rivals, Gossips and Love?

My aunt just told me moments ago to search a man that died from a snake venom in a mall last night in Robinson's mall.. But she's not sure if its on Robinson's or SM Megamall. Anyways.. So I bothered searching.. And results really caught my attention.. 13,700 results.. And the top findings we're "Robinsons Mall Twin snake Myths".. I opened some of the few links and read some stories.. And the story goes...

   The Gokongwei family allegedly built Robinsons Galleria to serve as the romping ground of their mutant offspring Robinson, who was supposedly the twin brother of Robina Gokongwei-Pe. Robinson's popularity peaked in the 1990s, when everyone believed that he indeed existed and frequented the ladies' fitting rooms of the department store. Others claimed he also liked to munch on little children, whom he would somehow grab while they were in the comfort room.

And there goes the story folks. They also said that the "R" in Robinson's mall were shaped like a snake head.

This feels like subliminal advertising. Damn it.

And the story that made this very popular is when an another rumor spread in the name of a popular actress during that time.. Ms. Alice Dixon. Alice Dixon was said to be a victim of the snake dude. Well, almost. The story said that she went to the fitting room which had a trap door and fell to the snake's lair. When she fell there, She managed to escape. And when the Robinson's are aware that she is an actress and feeding her to snake Gokongwei is a terrible decision and very controversial. Instead, they bribed Alice to shut up about the incident... 

Another story was that this snake dude had fallen in love to Alice. Thus, letting her live.. Aww... He is half-human hearted after all.. even though it's scaly and snakelike and everything.. It's still half human indeed. 

BUT... It was still not proven and they said that the SM corporations spread this wicked rumor to attract more customers rather than Robinsons. How cruel, is in it!? Making us believe about the demi-snake falling in love to a mere mortal.. Sigh..
 

Anyways.. Ladies.. If you want to shop at Robinsons. Feel free! Do not worry about this flabbergasting rumors.. All you need to do.. Is watch out that stalker cams.. (they're everywhere)

Ta ta! :D

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Shit happens.

It really does.

This day. Not so smooth. It's not the worst but it's not also good. Sigh. But there has some bright side with the shit happened to me. Unlike that Tetris Fail up there..

It's like shit stuffs that happens to me triggers up my front lobe.. Shit stuffs give me ideas which I can use if I would be a director or comic artist or story writer or something someday.. Cool huh.. XD

Anyways Since were talking about shit. An Acquaintance forwarded me a message that is titled "The shit story" and goes like this:

There was a bird flying on a snow storm

It was so cold that it fell and froze in the snow

A cow passed by and drop shit onto the bird

The shit was warm and it made the bird conscious

The bird realized that and sing merrily

A cat nearby heard the bird singing and dug him out

And then the cat ate the bird..

What a happy ending indeed.. There were like three lessons in this story.

- not all people that gets you to shit is your enemy.

- not all people that gets you out of shit is your friend.

- when you're in deep shit. Shut up.

Kinda make sense..  But for me.. All kinds of shit happens. It's part of life.. That's why. I really don't give a crap. Sorry for the word "crap". 

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Can I sleep and wake up on Christmas Eve?

Why won't human go on hibernation. I want to feel it.. I want to go in a coma.. Where nothing is going on in your mind. No need for bothering problems.. No responsibility... Just rest.. No assurance about living or being awake again.. I want to go there.. In dreamland for a long period of time.. And I want to wake up.. On important dates.. Where happiness is at its finest... 

At some point in our lives.. Even though we think maturely.. We still wish for stupid things.. So stupid it got a point.. So stupid that everyone realizes that they want it too..  So stupid.. It doesn't make our brains bleed.. So stupid, it's fun. 

For the record.. I am happy as always.. or seems to be.. But after socializing.. I realized.. I managed to survive the day with fake smiles, fake thoughts, fake words.. and fake interests... People doesn't need to know, Who really am I.. People doesn't need to know WHAT really goes in my mind.. Except in here.. In here, as I elaborated in my earlier blogs... "it's like a less homo-diary"... What I write here is actually what goes on in my mind.. Every time I read my own blogs, I can see the transitions and how I actually had a mind that is never got contended.. It's always changes.. 

I just want to stop that thinking for a moment.. Forget everything. Release pressures.. And Sleep as long as I can without waking up... 

I want to sleep right now and wake up on Dec. 24 2010.. Where it's ready to eat.. Ready to forget the sorrow, party all night like there's no tomorrow.. I want to.. Guess life is really full of disappointments.. We can't get everything we want.. Without a consequence..

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So this is college.. Well highschool never ended after all..

Its my second week in our 1st year, second semester in college. I've experienced a lot of things last semester, I never imagined, maybe some.. hehehe.. Anyways. I think I never blogged about my experiences in the first time of my college.


Ahh...
C o l l e g e ..

 More Freedom

More Fun

More Fails

Anyways, Even though I just spent 5 months until now in college. I already felt that this is way more awesome than High school or maybe College is just the continuation of High school. Just more fun, more free, and more fails than HS. In just about 4 months, I experienced things I want but can't when I was in High school. Sleepovers? Far Hangouts? Party Parteh? Getting drunk? And some other private stuffs :)) It feels like when they say "life is hard", I'm saying "life is hard but I'm harder". Ooooooh...kkkkk... what the hell does that means? Whatever it is, I'm living life to the fullest. The thought that "live like it was you're last" is burnt inside my mind.

Actually, they say that my course, HRM, is the easiest course. They always underestimate this course. Well who cares. Not everyone can cook, mixed cocktails, serve orders, calculate and speak 4 different languages as the same time right? Every course has their advantages. For some, its easy, because their interests matched the course. For some, its hard as hell because they are just forced to take it. The point is, If you've chosen a course, make sure its suited for you. Maybe, you'll have more of the 3 F's. The fun, fail and freedom. But if you have no choice but to take something you don't feel getting. Just try to learn it well, and who knows.. Maybe someday.. you'll fell in love with that course and never regretted on taking it :D

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The devil's hour

It's past 3am in the morning right now and usually I'm wide awake at this hour. I think I'm having insomnia. Anyways I'm very sleepy right now.. But I want to write some things before i go get to sleep. They say that this hour is for the devil.. I don't know why but according to google and yahoo answers..


3-5am is the hour where our body's immune system is most vulnerable. It's when the we are rushed in the hospital on some kind of accident or some illness, we have more chances to survive during the day. When that incident occurs on that hour, the chances is minimal. It have been said that more people dies in hospitals during that time..


Another theory I have read is that anything devilish or something connected in devil, is the opposite or against of something holy, or Christianity.. For example, The Holy Cross is the sign of Christians (like me) and the sign of against it is an inverted cross. Jesus died at the Cross at Exactly 3pm.. and thus, the opposite of it is 3am.


They say its a folklore. I think nothing is in risk if I believe it. I believe that let's try to be safe at that hour. My mom said "Try to sleep" at that hour, which often occurs. Good thing she's in deep sleep right now. Anyways.. speaking of the devil.. (not my mom you bi....) :| I mean literally "devil".. There's a folklore I've read that there's a certain month which the devil is at its strongest. For example, today is November 22, 2010. Monday Dawn. And at 1:27pm it will be full moon. Too bad there's no moon in the afternoon. -_- Anyway, During this month, November, Asmodeus is at his strongest. He and his assistants work better this month and accomplish more missions.. It's like when werewolves are powerful on full moons.


Asmodeus was also a prince of the Seraphim and reportedly continues to be one, burning with desire to tempt men into wantonness. He is opposed by St. John the Baptist. He makes rulers and leaders with an attitude of "vile revenger" sounds like "power ranger" to me :)) anyways more of this, He is also associated with the deadly sin called "lust". There are seven deadly sins and each have its own devil associated with. For example, Beelzebub, my favorite, is on "gluttony". He's also a prince of the Seraphim and most powerful on the month of July. Anyways For me. During November, 3am is when people watch porn and fantasize about someone because Asmodeus is for "lust" :| :))


Anyways. Time for hitting up the sack folks. its almost 4am. Anyways I'm not watching anything ok? Even if its The devil's hour in the month of November. Which Asmodeus is on his best. Maybe I'm just thinking revenge. Because he's also into revenging, alright? Great. Good Mornight :D

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