Parasomnias and Insomnias.

Few years ago, Facebook wasn't bit much of a fame. People uses different kinds of "Social Networking Sites" and by that time, Myspace is the most famous. But people in the Philippines had a different SNS. It was called Friendster :). Friendster hit people in here, Philippines, by a storm. It all started like 5-6 years ago. People we're like "hey check this out.", and I was like a "feel cool" kid back then on my 5th grade. I said, who would give a damn bout that, but then I saw my crush. And i was like "nah, I'll give this a chance." So i ask people on how to make this.. in a coooool way. Then I add my crush as my friend. And everynight, there I was.. Stalking. Stalking. and staaaalking. XD 

3-4 years later, It had so many thing that's been going bout friendster, it had games, applications, profile designs. People became experts at CSS codes which is positive for later purposes. But then. It was a bit over-rated. It sure was, except there's one thing which I think opened my eyes into blogging, and that was the "friendster blogger". Some shit right? Anyways, I opened up my account and it's still there. Boo yah. I searched some profiles of my college friends, and nothing had bit changed. Anyways, I've read my very first blog, and it goes like this:

what is the natural time to take down deep in slumber? 9? 10? 11? 12 is common. but guess what.. last night i fell asleep on the “9″ but not 9pm its freakin 9am . what in the world is wrong with me???? i searched some sleep disorders in wikipedia and here’s what i got:

• Insomnia
:Continuously having difficulty in falling asleep and sleep maintenance.

• Bruxism
: Involuntarily grinding or clenching of the teeth while sleeping

• Narcolepsy
: Excessive daytime sleepiness, often culminating in falling asleep spontaneously and unwillingly at inappropriate times.

• Night terror
, Pavor nocturnus, sleep terror disorder: abrupt awakening from sleep with behavior consistent with terror

• Parasomnias
Disruptive sleep-related events involving inappropriate actions during  sleep stages - sleep walking and night-terrors are examples.

• Rapid eye movement behavior disorder
 (RBD): Acting out violent or dramatic dreams while in REM sleep

• Restless legs syndrome
 (RLS): An irresistible urge to move legs. RLS sufferers often also have PLMD.

ok my commonly, i have insomnia.. a R-E-A-L insomnia, not just you have been stayed awake in or 2 or 3 in the morning or something like that.  but what i felt was this..
“gah.. i’m tired.. gonna hit the sack now… whew.. im just waiting till im in dreamland…. any minute now.. here we go..”
6 freakin hours later…
“oh my God! what the heck is happening!!!”
then
*applause*
mission success..
but then the ring bells…   “DOPE!!!   NOHHHHHHH!!!”
happy ending isn’t it? before i had a sleepwalking disorder when i was a kid.. and i thought it would be cool.. but when i slept over to my cousin’s.. guess what.. almost saw the light passed away.. it wasn’t cool i assure you.. cause i’m freakin standing in stairs waiting to make a wrong step and then.. tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot… *clear*
well not that worse..  but good thing my aunt rescued me.. she told “hoy bat gising ka na” (why are you not sleeping and dreaming and standing and you know?) and then she looked at me and.. i’m snoring.. maybe it sounds that i’m just joking but its the truth that don’t hurt, right?
one things for sure.. tonight will be the same night as last night.. :(((

Who would have know? I've been into blogging ever since. No. I meant I've been into paranormal activities since I was a kid, I almost forgot that thing. Good thing I've read this. And right now, parasomnias and insomnias still occurs, during summer and vacations. I fell asleep last night on 6am. Imagine. I heard my cousin's alarm. He's gonna wake up when I'm just gonna get to deep down slumber. I don't even work. Oh well. 

HAHA

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A Nature Of A Women's Broken Heart.

HELLO! Damn this, I really blog less. When I first used this, I almost write to it everyday. Although, I know nobody reads this, I like spilling out the juice out my mind. Now, without further adieu.. Something pop out my mind.. And it's something about. Not me. For the first time! I guess.

Well I'm not that observant person, but reading blogs, articles, watching chick flicks(I KNOW), seeing friends, relatives. I must say, there's nothing.. or RARELY women have in common. Men have a lot things in common. Totally transparent.

Let's talk about this one thing common between women. Women are very, very different from the other one. There's a certain combination that makes them so distinct from each other. There's no "nerdy" that is just a total bookworm. There can be a hot nerdy, a religious nerdy, a rebel nerdy, an evil nerdy or a musical nerdy? I don't exactly know. You get the point. And now you say "that's the fucking personality! And there's guys like that! how come men are the same!? You fucking idiot!" Relax, relax! Actually I don't know! But remember, i said "so as the ladies" and for the explanation about how men are the same..

You see, men. We have different personalities. At some situation. We can be jackasses at some exact moment. Like when we're drunk or stuff like that, you know over excitement. We can be aggressive at same exact time too, like those anger problems. You know what i'm talking about. We have the same response for different situations. Wait. we have same, different response at the same, different situations. Ok, more confusions. If you get me, you're damn good.(and might contradict me. I might be wrong) And if you don't. I don't care. This is not the topic, alright maybe a part of the topic. MOVING ON....

Here's the thing I wanna let out, I think many people realize this. But when women, started out as a simple looking person. Like let say, doesn't go much on vanity. You know, brushing her hair is what she does in front of the mirror most of the time. Not too much, not too little.. Before that, I must say. Women fall in love easy. Some men too, but women really care so much about little efforts which some douche bag men take advantage(damn you some men that destroy the name of being a real men!). Anyways... Women (mostly) when fallen in love for the first time then got their hearts broken.. Few remains the same. THEY BECOME BETTER THAN EVER, after moving on. They become more conscious on how will they look, what to say, or what will they dress. OR. become bitchy, Men otherwise when got heartbroken, they will remain the same, or if they have the looks and confidence.. they will become a player (say whaaat!? now that's what i'm talking about from before!)

Conclusion is : Don't break a women's heart if you don't wanna see her looking hotter than ever WITH another guy.

Photo by xdestineex from flickr.com (thanks for this awesome photography!)

P.S.

YOU are unique. Just like everybody else. Sounds wrong? nope. That's the truth. If there's a similarity between BILLIONS of people in this world. That must be, uniqueness and originality.

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Someone's bored. What now?

"haha", "yeah..", "whatever", "ugh", "...", (WHAT WOULD I REPLY TO THIS?)

Frustrated about your conversation? Yeah, everybody is.. You see, interest comes from the words someone will reply to you. Whether its a simple nod or an "i don't know". You can tell if someone don't really know the shit you are talking about, or someone just simply... doesn't give a fuck. Face it. We can't be entertaining to everybody. Not even stars, aliens, ghosts, spider-man or Peter Griffin can be entertaining to some. People aren't the same.

About this people. Hmm. People also change, or somehow.. It is their personality before and then they change then the "before personality" came back? But then we don't notice it, because what we see is their interest, which we don't care if its real, or fake. Ok, I think this might be confusing but... People unintentionally or intentionally hide their feelings. So as their interest. They may laugh or accompany you at first. But believe me, only few stays, and get interested.

Sometimes, I wish I could be an animal. A dog which can be entertaining. I never get tired with dogs. But this is life. Face the reality. We can't please everyone. We can only attract attention (at first)

I'm so sleepy and stoned, I don't know what in the hell I'm discussing. I just wanna put a story on that dog. XD

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Let's walk in a straight line.

Got so drunk. I fell asleep. Puked. Almost. Ate a scorching hot noodles. And sang a song all at the same time. Whoa. Last night was so awesome. I never thought I'd reached that moment. It was almost cloud 9. Laughters and no more tears formula was inside of that rhum bottle. Chased by beer. Followed by tea and ice. It was helluva night. Although the drinking session wasted moments started when we're all boys there. It was nothing but happy times. Though, like a bottle threw to my head, Spirit hit my mind hard. I straightened it up and the heat lined to my throat falling down through my esophagus. It feels like heaven and hell at the same time. I see double visions. There's only one light open but seeing it through the ceiling fan, it felt like it's disco lights. The world is spinning around. I'm weak at this but I tried to get wasted. I did. And at first, I liked it. But I'm still awake when I got the hangover. Yep. I'm hanging for the moment. I'm hanging for 3 hours. I asked for this. I want this. But hell, do I hate this feeling. This isn't the solution. But the pain on my cerebrum forgot you for the moment. All I'm centered in is the pain on my brain while my hearts beats faster and faster.

 It's fine. I'm fine. It's my first time.

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My 15 minutes of limelight is over.

Ever got the feeling that you're used to be on that position, on that situation? And the moment you knew that.. It's over. You just got replaced. It's normal. It's life. One time you're employed. The next thing you'll know..
...
..
.
You're fired.

I just don't get it. Ok, you know what sucks more than that? It's when you're chosen to be in the top position. But waits for your turn! It's like having an unsure reservation. Sigh. Why do I get emotions. Seriously. I want to remove this piece of crap that doesn't help me at all. I want to wake up someday.. That I don't feel anything. I don't react on what I see. I don't care on everybody. I don't love. I don't hate. I don't get infatuated. I don't get high. I don't get pain. I wish there's an "off switch" to emotions. The fuck! I hate this. How can I resist? Waking up seeing you in my deep, dark, useless mind.

One day. I'll get over this unsure feeling, I always have. Seeing you with other people. I can dig that. You're having friends. Ignoring me as always. Damn it that I can't. I don't care if its selfish. Who doesn't want to have your time. But when I'm with you. I'm left speechless, because I got nothing to say. Maybe that's the reason I'm replaced. I can't make the conversations alive. And all I got to say is nod, smile, and do some things. I'm helluva boring person. I'm good only at the first part. Maybe this is the feeling. The feeling of being left. I know its unsure that you're leaving me. We don't have any label on our relationship. All I know its a fucking secret. But I can't hold this any longer. In a just a month, I'm fucking infatuated with you. Who cares if its not love. It's still fucking irritating and comfortable at the same time.. I hate this. I hate emotions. And I hate you. I hate you for playing with me.. Because of you, I can't see any other fish. You're like a one big tuna blocking my view! I'll never get over you, until I win you over. 

You're a breeze. That gives me shiver and fond touch at random times. Which I won't know when will arrive. And can't get it even if I want to. I can't. I can't.

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"It's Cold" (Warm Coffee and a Hug Please)

It's about an hour ago since I got home from my friends house.. And while walking on their streets.. I noticed how awesome the moon was. It's a bit rainy, but the raindrops are very small and fine. It's like a solid fog back then. Anyways The clouds was very thin too, so you could see the moon at lightly. The wind is blowing heavily at the clouds, so its rapid movements made see the moon much better.. The moon was lightly full. By Tuesday, it will be on its fullest.. As the wind blows more harder.. I felt more colder.. And made me realize.. The closer the Christmas gets.. the colder.. The temperature today is 25 degrees Celsius. Pretty cold for a low city on a tropical country like the Philippines..

27 hours since a special friend of mine is separated to me.. And I don't know this feeling. I have felt this before, but still can't distinguish it clearly. It feels like years have past and wanting badly a warm embrace from that person.. Maybe I just misses her.. 

I always wonder. Why does cold temperature, calm foggy weather and a bright moon affect emotions

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OK GO!

Copyright From Flicker. I forgot the name of the owner xD

Look at that cute Dog.. I think he likes the pool. That's why he's jumping on it and falling for it.. In comeeeeeng!!

Anyways,  Did you ever got that feeling that you wanna jump but scared because the pool might be too deep.. or too shallow.. or maybe its too hot or too cold.. too clean or too dirty.. too much chlorine or too much purity.. Which I just thought.. Who cares. You want the pool. Then go for it.. Thinking too much isn't a solution in problems.. It wastes time, energy and effort.. When you could have fun.. and Make every second count, Make energies used for something and Effort on something worthy.. Or just Do what we want.. That's the best part of it.. 

My friend and I talked until now.. I asked him.. "dude.. what if i fell for the wrong reason again.. What if I fell for something that everybody think is normal.. What if I'm just assuming things.. What if I'm wrong again this time" And he was all.. "dude.. what the fck.. Just do what you want. It's worth the try. If she's really important, then do you're best damn it." 

This made me realize things I have forgotten.. Things NIKE used to say.. "Just Do It" I know its weird but.. Who cares.. If it makes me happy now. Forget the possibility that it can make me cry tomorrow. My mind always tells me that.. jeeez.. I forgot.. 

teeeeheeee.. :D

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Snakes, Malls, Dressing Rooms, Myths, Rivals, Gossips and Love?

My aunt just told me moments ago to search a man that died from a snake venom in a mall last night in Robinson's mall.. But she's not sure if its on Robinson's or SM Megamall. Anyways.. So I bothered searching.. And results really caught my attention.. 13,700 results.. And the top findings we're "Robinsons Mall Twin snake Myths".. I opened some of the few links and read some stories.. And the story goes...

   The Gokongwei family allegedly built Robinsons Galleria to serve as the romping ground of their mutant offspring Robinson, who was supposedly the twin brother of Robina Gokongwei-Pe. Robinson's popularity peaked in the 1990s, when everyone believed that he indeed existed and frequented the ladies' fitting rooms of the department store. Others claimed he also liked to munch on little children, whom he would somehow grab while they were in the comfort room.

And there goes the story folks. They also said that the "R" in Robinson's mall were shaped like a snake head.

This feels like subliminal advertising. Damn it.

And the story that made this very popular is when an another rumor spread in the name of a popular actress during that time.. Ms. Alice Dixon. Alice Dixon was said to be a victim of the snake dude. Well, almost. The story said that she went to the fitting room which had a trap door and fell to the snake's lair. When she fell there, She managed to escape. And when the Robinson's are aware that she is an actress and feeding her to snake Gokongwei is a terrible decision and very controversial. Instead, they bribed Alice to shut up about the incident... 

Another story was that this snake dude had fallen in love to Alice. Thus, letting her live.. Aww... He is half-human hearted after all.. even though it's scaly and snakelike and everything.. It's still half human indeed. 

BUT... It was still not proven and they said that the SM corporations spread this wicked rumor to attract more customers rather than Robinsons. How cruel, is in it!? Making us believe about the demi-snake falling in love to a mere mortal.. Sigh..
 

Anyways.. Ladies.. If you want to shop at Robinsons. Feel free! Do not worry about this flabbergasting rumors.. All you need to do.. Is watch out that stalker cams.. (they're everywhere)

Ta ta! :D

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Shit happens.

It really does.

This day. Not so smooth. It's not the worst but it's not also good. Sigh. But there has some bright side with the shit happened to me. Unlike that Tetris Fail up there..

It's like shit stuffs that happens to me triggers up my front lobe.. Shit stuffs give me ideas which I can use if I would be a director or comic artist or story writer or something someday.. Cool huh.. XD

Anyways Since were talking about shit. An Acquaintance forwarded me a message that is titled "The shit story" and goes like this:

There was a bird flying on a snow storm

It was so cold that it fell and froze in the snow

A cow passed by and drop shit onto the bird

The shit was warm and it made the bird conscious

The bird realized that and sing merrily

A cat nearby heard the bird singing and dug him out

And then the cat ate the bird..

What a happy ending indeed.. There were like three lessons in this story.

- not all people that gets you to shit is your enemy.

- not all people that gets you out of shit is your friend.

- when you're in deep shit. Shut up.

Kinda make sense..  But for me.. All kinds of shit happens. It's part of life.. That's why. I really don't give a crap. Sorry for the word "crap". 

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Can I sleep and wake up on Christmas Eve?

Why won't human go on hibernation. I want to feel it.. I want to go in a coma.. Where nothing is going on in your mind. No need for bothering problems.. No responsibility... Just rest.. No assurance about living or being awake again.. I want to go there.. In dreamland for a long period of time.. And I want to wake up.. On important dates.. Where happiness is at its finest... 

At some point in our lives.. Even though we think maturely.. We still wish for stupid things.. So stupid it got a point.. So stupid that everyone realizes that they want it too..  So stupid.. It doesn't make our brains bleed.. So stupid, it's fun. 

For the record.. I am happy as always.. or seems to be.. But after socializing.. I realized.. I managed to survive the day with fake smiles, fake thoughts, fake words.. and fake interests... People doesn't need to know, Who really am I.. People doesn't need to know WHAT really goes in my mind.. Except in here.. In here, as I elaborated in my earlier blogs... "it's like a less homo-diary"... What I write here is actually what goes on in my mind.. Every time I read my own blogs, I can see the transitions and how I actually had a mind that is never got contended.. It's always changes.. 

I just want to stop that thinking for a moment.. Forget everything. Release pressures.. And Sleep as long as I can without waking up... 

I want to sleep right now and wake up on Dec. 24 2010.. Where it's ready to eat.. Ready to forget the sorrow, party all night like there's no tomorrow.. I want to.. Guess life is really full of disappointments.. We can't get everything we want.. Without a consequence..

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