Soul Searching

Ever had the feeling that you joined an environment full of happy souls. Cheerfully singing to their unity. Held together as one as they proclaim their positive beliefs. You watch them, you try your best to get inspired as they all are. You try to be like one. You try to be like them. You try to enjoy. You try to socialize. You try it all because of the pressure and this pressure is also the one that keeps you separated from them. And you realize... "I've been to a place like this before, but it did not worked out well.." You probably just doesn't belong. But how can you conquer loneliness if you can't belong?

Sometimes, loneliness is not really what its like when your alone by yourself. Sometimes, this so-called "loneliness" is also like when you try to fit in a "square-shaped" community, even though you are a "round-shaped" person.

That precious space should also be covered with Pizza

We always try to seek what's missing in our lives. We try to walk on other's shoes in order to relate to them. But really, do we need to bother? Sure we need improvements. We need change for the betterment. We need enhancement and we need the counsel of those who already conquered. But we don't need to copy their every move. For each destination, takes a different road. We don't need to take the same path of others. We should make our own. Who cares if others go in that direction when we have other plans for ourselves, right?

Sometimes, walking alone in a road traveled less or even confining our self to that very own world we tried to make when we were younger for at least a few moments would help us feel that even the warm breeze in the morning or the last drop of rain you felt before entering your home seems to be a better company than anyone else. It starts when we focus on searching things within us waiting to be found instead of trying to research what's already discovered. In the end, it's always up to us.

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It's not about the destination, it's the journey.

It's February already, Valentines day is running smoothly ahead. I didn't notice how fast time was consuming me on working at the SkyDeck. Bayleaf hotel's bar and restaurant. Working there as a trainee since November really taught me a lot of things. I might write something about that in an another post.

A view of Metro manila from Skydeck of The Bayleaf Hotel captured by my phone

What is this post all about anyways? This came up with the thought:

"If you're staying where you are, nothing will come in your way. If you're moving on or heading forward, good things and bad things will greet you along the way. Still, it's better than nothing."

I came up with it when I was heading home after work. Probably because of the movement of the vehicle I'm riding or probably because dawn is affecting people's mind, thus making me think deeper while playing Metallica on my iPod.

People are always afraid of the unknown. That's why we had that popular saying that curiosity killed the cat.

Not everything is yours, America! I mean meow.

Why are people afraid of something they don't know or haven't tried yet? Because it makes them think. Thinking of the 50 percent success and 50 percent failure. Failing doesn't kill us unless we are engaged in a "Saw" movie which obviously depending on our success in order to save our asses, else we have to face a seemingly lawfully yet disgusting way to end our unjust lives (based on the movie). Back to the point, not most of us are willing to take the risk in trying but why shouldn't we. We can't stay forever sitting in a chair because you think it's an awesome chair because you've been sitting in that chair for like eleventeen years.

Everything you've been doing has been done for the first time. It's up to you to take the leap now or wait for more (n) hours, days, months or years. Don't let the term "character doesn't change overnight" serves as an excuse. You know that is kinda bullsh.. All I say is, you are always the one hinders you, yourself. You can't move on, you can't accept maturity and you can't live and stay forward because you don't let it start and make it happen.

All of what's happened in the past fails or wins, part of the learning process, who we are today is the outcome. Who we are tomorrow will be the effect of what we are and what we've done today.

All these were simple common things people already thought from the beginning they accepted maturity.

Maturity isn't fun if you don't let it. Make it simple. We are the passengers of our vehicles driven by our decisions. Just like most of us riding a Jeepney. Enjoying the morning breeze. I know where I'll be heading. Just like you supposed to be. Just pick the right vehicle. Even if you are lost, at least, you found out a new route where you can find another vehicle that will lead you to your destination. It's always more about the journey. And sometimes, it's not about where you're going. It's who you're with.

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