Looking back at my old posts, I can see myself with not much
of progress at all. Maybe a bit facial hair was added but still the same.
Probably throwing back every month doesn’t really make me miss my old self, but
there are really good memories when we recall our past and younger lives. Wow,
somehow it felt like I don’t deserve to think like that. After all I’m just 21,
there are very little ‘looking back at the things I’ve done’ kind of
recollection compared to veterans. Meh.
Well honestly, I’m looking back to my old blog posts
recently. It doesn’t make sense. It’s like somebody forced a thought to be
written that will be connected with the gifs he saw on photobucket for added
animation on the literature. Well that’s what most of my 2009-2011 blogs was like.
2012 was hiatus for shitty reasons. Then 2013 came. I went to United States, so
I tried to pretend that I can speak ‘American’ for a while. I got better in
expressing myself through English language but I cannot really speak very fast
unless I’m comfortable on who I’m speaking with. Ever since, I wrote down
ideas; clump all of the ones I wanted to write, and voila! – A slightly
developed me, talking to myself (with the intention of other people
hearing/reading it) through blogging. Sometimes I force people to make me feel
less useless, but sometimes I’d prefer someone that would criticize or proof
read it (srsly, no h8 pls).
As I said on my past blogs, blogs was one of my outlets or
like a diary in other terms. Being an only child has pros and cons – unfortunately,
having a dull and lonely life makes me want to speak out more to express
myself. I don’t mind people telling me or talking behind my back saying “this
idiot thinks he knows everything” – Nope, that’s why I ask a lot of things. “He
talks too much for a guy” – whoa. Sexist. Ever heard of standup comedy? And
tons of side comments that doesn’t qualify as a constructive criticism. See
mom, that’s a big word(s). “Constructive Criticism”. I feel smarter than
yesterday already.
Currently, I seek to find new ways to improve my writing. I
wanted to study multimedia arts for multiple reasons also. To learn more about
writing and to study my other hobbies – directing and editing videos. I find my
poor passion performance or being a mediocre at everything I try, very
frustrating. Luckily, I have few people that I can share my thoughts; Different
people, different views and different hobbies.
Thanks to some of the books and authors I follow, I realized
that I’m not alone in the frustrations of finding passion. Being distracted and
demotivated sometimes is good for us. Having multiple interests are also a
benefit, especially when bored. I remember Austin Kleon mentioned, author of
the best-selling book “Steal like an Artist”, that the best ideas comes up when
we’re doing something that doesn’t need effort. When he needs an idea, he just
wash dishes, do laundry or some other chores. It was also very productive. I
never realized that before, but I did remember that tunes or beat comes up to
my mind when I’m doing an effortless job. Most of the times, my realization and
my usual 2am thoughts pops up while I’m on work. That’s why I’m always writing
down my ideas at my phone, or in a sticky note.
Most of the topics I posted since 2014 was made up usually
when I’m going to work using metro. It’s a 30 minute ride. One time, I had an
hour long flight between the cities in the Philippines (Manila to Legazpi).
Since I can’t sleep for that short period of waiting, I took my phone and
tickled my boredom. I made an entire heroic universe. The story was inspired
from the characters in a cartoon. It was about old and retired heroes. I’m
still working on it though. I don’t have an ending yet.
We might not be the best yet on what we’re doing, but I
guess we should never give up on finding that passion. I can’t really advice
anything great right now, especially that I don’t have the title yet to promote
ideas and motivations – but hey it’s a start. One day, I see myself as a
motivator. I may have not the most depressing story, or the poorest background
or even a high societal position that can be used as a credit for advising and
motivating, I know I can and I will. Because my background is like most of us.
It’s normal, it’s usual and it’s very common. I’m a common person, with a common
life, with a common mind and a common history. You and I have a lot of common
things to share about. Let’s both start upgrading our ‘commoners’ status little
by little. Pursue passion, set a goal, work on it.
One of Robin Sharma's book (The Leader Who Had no Title) on the title itself says that you don't need position nor title to become great on what you are doing, or give great service and advice.
We might be mediocre, untalented, boring or very normal, but don't let that stop us. Let's continue poking are very own curiosity rover, have some time in a day that we'll just think about lots of things, talk to people that has a different interest than yours, read or just look through pictures. We can find lot's of things outside, but we'll find tons in our minds. We'll keep dream the results, plan the process, and wake up to start early as we can. Together we'll dream as a common person and soon will wake up better than ourselves from yesterday.
Like Shia Labeouf said - “Some people dream success, while you’re gonna wake up
and work hard on it.”
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