As of this moment.

As of this moment I heard silence.

As of this moment nothing thinks me.

As of this moment I feel no presence.

As of this moment my front and back are being stabbed.

As of this moment, literally blood drips in my hand.

As of this moment, the wall shared my pain.

As of this moment red sea is what I see.

As of this moment, my heart beats twice.

As of this moment, I think, why?

As of this moment, my only friend is moonshine.

As of this moment, consciousness departs on my head.

As of this moment, I wonder when will this shall end.

As of this moment, I want to clear my mind.

As of this moment I want to kill this life.

As of this moment, I try not to be over dramatic.

Because as of this moment, tomorrow this will be tragic.

So that's how it feels like to punch the wall many times. Very messy. And even made me write this 5 minute poetry. God bless me. I will sin a little.