As of this moment.

As of this moment I heard silence.

As of this moment nothing thinks me.

As of this moment I feel no presence.

As of this moment my front and back are being stabbed.

As of this moment, literally blood drips in my hand.

As of this moment, the wall shared my pain.

As of this moment red sea is what I see.

As of this moment, my heart beats twice.

As of this moment, I think, why?

As of this moment, my only friend is moonshine.

As of this moment, consciousness departs on my head.

As of this moment, I wonder when will this shall end.

As of this moment, I want to clear my mind.

As of this moment I want to kill this life.

As of this moment, I try not to be over dramatic.

Because as of this moment, tomorrow this will be tragic.

So that's how it feels like to punch the wall many times. Very messy. And even made me write this 5 minute poetry. God bless me. I will sin a little.

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Nope, we don't think alike.

The world is always filled with battles, battles between religion, race, politics, video games, cooking shows. You name it! But what fascinates me the most were the battle between sexes. Nope, it's not the battle we do in the bed (no pun intended). But the battle among thy men and thy woman. Yes, the never ending battle against supremacy. Who is the best? Who is the better? Who will never shout never? Ugh...

This picture I grabbed from a friend on facebook,
 I don't think she knows me but still thanks for this. LOL

That's right kids.. Give me the finger. You see children, this is wrong. But I dig this! Its genius! Anyways, I know its a bad joke. Never shout never. Tss. So I can see all of you inhabitants reacting like that (I knew it coming. Take that). Enough with the joke. The real point of this was the Gender issues. Who is better? Who is loser? The guys? The gals? The chicks? The dicks? Boys? Girls?

I'm a guy, but I'll try not to biased here, this was my opinion so don't get all mad. Nobody's better. We have differences which of course a lot of people already know. I know the people who have some time to read my bullshits here are smart people :D Enough with the sucking readers thoughts. For me, physically.. men and women's body and capability is almost identical. BUT. Men practiced from their childhood to carry this, work for that, do this, fix that. If a woman is built the same way men were, you will understand what I'm blabbering here. Next was, in terms of world's point view.. Women can do what men can do.. then again.. BUT.. Men can't. You know why men can't? Well men can, but world will see it as either "you're gay cause you do girl stuffs. HA-HA" or "Women already did that, why would you wanna do that?". That's right. World is sexist. I hate it but somehow, I also get that mentality. Its bad to judge. I just hope that if people can't say something good, or just gonna brag.. Don't say it at all.. It's the root of all the fights, judgement, debates and did i say fights?

WORLD PEACE OUT YO!

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You take it, I take you.

"What would you take?"

This Image Was From The Movie MATRIX

"You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. 

You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes."

This question was asked by Morpheus to Neo from the movie "Matrix". Sound so wrong, right? I mean, why would you let this guy show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes? Never mind for those who don't get it. Its a weird innuendo. Anyways anyways anywaaays, If you'd have the chance to choose from the two? 

Would you take the...

 Blue pill      or     the Red pill? 

I used "paint" for this picture. LOL.

No, this Isn't about the Jabbawockeez' dance song titles, but this was much more of a choice. It's a choice whether you want to wake up on the dream that turning out to be a nightmare, or to stay in the dream. Preventing it from turning into a nightmare, slay the "jabberwocky". And be the hero of your dream.

Is it the question that complicates you? No. You gotta admit, the choices made it difficult. The Blue - which will wake you up and believe what you want to believe isn't the one that faces reality, it's a 'blissful ignorance of illusion'  that makes you BELIEVE what you want to believe and ignore the fact the you can face the challenges of life. The Red - which will make you stay and 'see how deep the rabbit-hole goes' wasn't the dream actually, its accepting where you are and what is happening around that you thought was a "dream". It was really 'embracing the sometimes painful truth of reality'. It's what the Matrix and Alice in the Wonderland want us to realize. Not because it looks like a nightmare, it wasn't real. 


Decisions, decisions. In the end, it will be always your choice. Don't let other OPINIONS destroy your BELIEFS, FAITH and HOPE. And most importantly, no matter what we pick, whether a blue, red or even green.. 


It's staying strong after the effect of the pill that counts the most. So stay strong.




(Most information was found in wikipedia and yahoo.com)

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This will END shortly after the BREAK.

Damn it why this time!?

What would you feel if its the most important part of your most favorite show. And this showed up? Not to mention of Japanese horror character showing up. YIKES. Well, aside from crept out, you'd be pissed right? Yes? No? Normally, I become very emotional. I go "damned" and kick or punch something (only when I'm alone, I become that violent), then I start to somehow teary, depends on how emotional I am on that time (again, only when alone). 

Let's put this situation in reality, what would you feel if the most important person left you in your supposed to be most important day. Who will be happy? Under some circumstances, maybe some will be glad but overall, it's really painful. I mean let say its your anniversary, and then suddenly "this doesn't work out anymore" phrase you heard instead of "I love you". If that was a joke, it's fucking mean. Anyways.. If that'll happen to me, my brain will go like that television. Out of signal. Go brrrrshhh... and needs to be tapped so hard to get back.

If I'm a television, my channel will be love station. I will tell everyday of my life to my one and only viewer that I love every inch of her. I might be broken and go brrrrssshh and won't be able to say it again. At least until the very last time, I'd be able let her know how much I love her, even if its just words.. 

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